I need to rant and rave about stuff right now. I feel oddly pissed. I always write when I'm pissed. It usually comes out sounding really good, although I only write what comes out. I hate my mother fucking stepdad. He always tries to fuck with me. I am glad that I met Adam, because he's the one who taught me how to have the courage to stand up to him. otherwise I'd meekly comply with everything HE said. Yup, this chainsaw-owner used to be quiet about everything. She would do whatever anyone told her. She tried to fit in. Then she met Adam and Sky, and those two changed her outlook on life forever. (Adam and Sky are in no way connected except by friendship...Sky lives nbear me and Adam lives...far away...not gonna say where so :Þ) They taught me hgow to be me and be proud of it. Oddly enough, they didn't know each other at this time. Adam...that reminds me, I miss adam so much. I wish he were here. I have some shit I need to talk to him about. Some shit only he would understand. Sky would understand some of it...but there's some stuff only your bf understands, yanno? Kara....she and I have been having lotsa fights lately. It all started with Sky and I telling her she wasn't punk. Kids at our high school aren't exactly nice, so since Kara, Nicky and I are goijng there next year, Sly and I figured we might as well make it so that she didn't get the shit kicked out of her. Kara took it the totally the wrong way. And when I say the wrong way I mean our friendship almost ended there, and we've been best friends since 4th grade. Now she's taking everything I saw completely out of context...and...well...you know. It's quite annoying. I'm tempted to just tell her to buzz off and end our friendship if she doesn't quit it. But, for now, we have a semi-truce....so we remain friends...hopefully we always will. But if we part ways, then our friendship just wasn't meant to be, I suppose....**sighs** back when she and I both had a crush on adam, she said that she should go out with him because she "didn't like that sissy anime sailor moon" and now it's her favorite show and she's acting like she's always liked it and that she's the expert. I've liked it for much longer. I know more than she does. I watch the anime and read the manga translations (Ok, so I don't see the pictures...big whoop...I'm too poor to buy them..hell...my family's poor...I may be moving soon because of it...not my fault...) Also, Sailor Saturn has ALWAYS been my fav sailor scout. ALWAYS!!! So when Kara claims that Saturn cannot be my fav 'cause it's her fav...or am I confusing her with someone else? this is what you get when you write a rant at 4:30 am after reading a good part of the first Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy book. I command you all to go buy and read them now...or if you're just too goddamn lazy like me, www.kazaalite.con, dl the program, then get a document with the books in it. wanring, you have to really search to find it. well, the full version, anyways. I hear the 6th book if out. Cannot find it yet...must keep searching...anyways, I'm just typing...trying to stay awake for a full 24 hours so that I can get back to everyone's reg sleep schedule. Especially 'cause I'll need to for high school. it's times like hse when I really wish they had night school for teenagers. Did you know it's a scientific fact thaty teenager's bodies tell them to stay up all night and sleep all day? Honestly, I read it in a magazine (so I'm a super-smart 14 year old who should probably be skipped a grade...deal with it, all my friends do...hehehehehe...i'm the smartest, I can answer anything, I'm just too lazy to answer any questions or do my hw...oh well...i help them with thiers because they do theirs at a reasonable time, wheras I do mine 5 mins before class starts...I get it done too, which PROVES how smart I am, so BOOYA!) and some adults I talk to (yes, I talk to adults...they make for good intelligent conversation...once they forget that i'n 14...otherwise they treat me like a child, which I obviously am not) also have read it. MAN!! that last sentence was LONG!!! Wanna know what's weird? How I can easily gt into deep, meaningful conversations and go from tjhe deep, meaningful one to senseless chatter as long and I trust the person? I have a serious trust peoblem...i trust no one, except a few people. I trust...**counts on her fingers** 3 people. I don't know if I should list them here or not. Some people who regularly read this site are not on my trust list so they might get offended. Oh well. sorry guys, I do trust you..to an extent...but these guys are my heart and soul. Sky, adam, my mom, and usually Kara. OK, so that's 4. not my fault. I usually trust Kara, but when she's an ass...well....you know....I just realized I have a hangnail on my finger. Oh well..must get nailclipper...must ...clip...off....OK, there I go. MUCH better.I wanna stay up. I moved my computer downstairs. My mom and her boyfriend sleep on the futon down here. I don't knpow why they don't sleep on her bed. Sometimes she sends me upstairs to go on her computer. I don't think I have to tell you what I think is going on when THAT happens. It's very odd. Her bf is a comp. techie from Texas. Well, that tells you I'm not from Texas. I live somewhere in New England, if that helps you any. I don't feel like saying what state. I don't feel like having people tracking me down and stuff...all those recent murders...yuck...I might be going to the warped tour on the 10th of august. I'm happy because my all-time fav band simple plan will be playing!! It's GA (general admission) so I get to walk around and go wherever I want, plus I can go buy tickets right before I go into the concert! Can you say guarenteed spot? Man, it's gonna be PACKED!!!! big punk-rock festival thing. Sky might be going. I she does, she's coming along with me. Kinda 'cause I'm going, and she might be going, so instead of bringing more adults than necesary, sky'll tag along. That's what i think happened. I dunno. All I know is that if I go and Sky goes we go together. Maybe I can bring Kara, if Kara isn't a bitch. Kara reminds me of the name Kendra...Geoff has an ex gf named that. or maybe they're back together. I don't know, nor do I care right now. I'm angry with Geoff. He tried to break me and Adam up. He likes me, that'd probably why. Bt nobody can break Adam and I up. We're inseparable. Only we can break ourselves up. I hope that doesn't happen anytime soon. And if it does, i hope it happens after I get sick of the relationship, which is NOT likely (anything is possible, but this isn't probable...) DAMN!!! This thing is LONG!!! I can't wait to put it on the website to see hoe much room it takes up. i love wasting webpace. I get dree CDs. Just for putting band's banners on my site. YUP! gonna get me a T.A.T.U.CD single. At least, if I understood the thing correctly I do. It's now about 5 AM. Not exactly. Exac it's 4:51 and a bunch of seconds. Oh well. now 4:52 and some seconds. Soon it'll be getting light oyut. Then people in my house will wake up. And I'll finally be able to play music again. When my computer was in my room I could play music whenever I wanted to. But now that I'm downstairs, it may wake peoples up.Man, my neck hurts from looking at my keyboard for so long. I'm gonna try typing without looking at my keyboard for now. I usually look at it, seeing as I'm no good at touch typing (home row for you other folks who didn't go to my school and have themshove it down your throat for several years...)I'm doing a rather good job, I must admit. I barely look at it anyways, just kinda habit. It's a bit slower this way, seeing as I have to think for a second about where the keys are if my hands don't immediately go where they're needed. Oh well, this can be a usefull skill. My neck feels a bit better, but I'm gonna keep typing like this. My semi-prep cousin Sarah wants me to hang out with her. Odd, huh? a prep wanting to hang out with a goth and/or goth like me. I hate my computer when it's like this. When I backspace and go to fix it, it types over what I say so I have to either ignore it or re-type everything I said after it. Oh well. I need to go pee. I shall stop writing now and find other various things to do, like taunt people with my new blue hair. Farewell!!!!